alown again

Just got home from dropping my son off. We had a great weekend, but I certainly would have loved having more time with him. Truth is I could never really have enough time with my son. He shows me that I have something good to live for. I got him a fishing pole and he got to try out fishing for his first time. Although he didn't catch anything, he proved that he was a quick learner and didn't need long to learn to cast. This morning he was up and ready to go and we played halo3, one of the things he loves to do when he comes out to visit me. Playing video games with my son brings back great memories of all the time we spent together when he was younger. DJ was there to help me beat Halo2 when it first came out. We developed strategies together when the game was to hard to just go through. Like he would charge in and kill a bunch before getting killed and respon back where I was and charge back in till it was safe to move on. later on we had gotten our X-box live accounts and played against many other people. My son had made me so very proud. I recall after a game where he had played so very well that someone told him to "shut up, you sound like a little kid". He was only 5 at the time and I came to his defense saying that "he is only 5 and a level 16 so if you can boast thats your user rank is 3times your age then you have room to talk or else it's you that needs to shut up, why don't you look at how many times a 5 year killed you in that last game." The kid with the big mouth signed off and after that we had several "friend requests" because everyone thought is was so cool that a dad and son would play a game like that together.
I miss our times like that that we had. I guess back then we both knew things weren't going so great in our home life and it was our way to live outside of those problems. This thought came to me as we were getting closer to his home to drop him off and DJ turned the conversation back to Halo3 and "what ifs". I could sense that he didn't want to talk about how long it had been since the last time we saw each other or how long it might be till we saw each other again. I just hope I never have to wait that long to see my son ever again.

Thanks again to his mother for bringing him out, and I hope she will reconsider that first thing she said when she showed up about "never doing this again" as DJ needs his father as well as I need my son.