Sunday, February 25, 2007
Sunday, February 25, 2007
To meny posts.
For anyone that knows me should know that I am going to be going through a divorce. because of that I have been going and venting by posting to my various blogs. Once the divorce is over I plan on making links to all my posts available. One day it might even be easy to see what I've been going through. I'm not really my self these days and I know it. I'm torn up inside. I've known for years the the relationship with my wife wasn't the best but kept thinking one day it would improve. The fact is I pushed my wife away when she was pregnant with my son. I didn't know that woman go through emotional changes during that part of their life. I seeked comfort from another woman and it was that woman that helped me to see that I was wrong. Though the relationship ended there the hurt never went away for my wife and deep down she used the anger to keep our relationship from getting back on track. I was neglected, kept from the love I needed and in the end I know that things could never be set strait. I'm going to go on with my life and love again. I have learned a lot in the last few years. I know that the thing that was killing me most was the lack of affection. I could have lived without sex, but I need the touch of a woman to make me feel whole. A kiss can mean so much and for years I lived with only receiving a few and most were nothing more than a peck good-by when one of us were on the way out the door. I'm going to miss her but know I'll be better off in time. I hope this answers questions that some of my family had regarding why things never seemed to go well for me n my wife. I know I did try and will go on trying to be a good person for my son. Thanks for letting me vent.
I removed this post before because of a request by my EX. I still saw no reason why my side of the story being posted was a bad thing since she had gone and told anyone who would liston including my family. Well I tried to show respect... but when I'm now going on what will be my second weekend in a row without my son, I'm not feeling the need to respect her wishes. Oh she has said I can have my son provided I pick him up, knowing fully well my car's not running.
I guess you can expect more posts here now that I feel free to do as I like again.
To meny posts.
For anyone that knows me should know that I am going to be going through a divorce. because of that I have been going and venting by posting to my various blogs. Once the divorce is over I plan on making links to all my posts available. One day it might even be easy to see what I've been going through. I'm not really my self these days and I know it. I'm torn up inside. I've known for years the the relationship with my wife wasn't the best but kept thinking one day it would improve. The fact is I pushed my wife away when she was pregnant with my son. I didn't know that woman go through emotional changes during that part of their life. I seeked comfort from another woman and it was that woman that helped me to see that I was wrong. Though the relationship ended there the hurt never went away for my wife and deep down she used the anger to keep our relationship from getting back on track. I was neglected, kept from the love I needed and in the end I know that things could never be set strait. I'm going to go on with my life and love again. I have learned a lot in the last few years. I know that the thing that was killing me most was the lack of affection. I could have lived without sex, but I need the touch of a woman to make me feel whole. A kiss can mean so much and for years I lived with only receiving a few and most were nothing more than a peck good-by when one of us were on the way out the door. I'm going to miss her but know I'll be better off in time. I hope this answers questions that some of my family had regarding why things never seemed to go well for me n my wife. I know I did try and will go on trying to be a good person for my son. Thanks for letting me vent.
I removed this post before because of a request by my EX. I still saw no reason why my side of the story being posted was a bad thing since she had gone and told anyone who would liston including my family. Well I tried to show respect... but when I'm now going on what will be my second weekend in a row without my son, I'm not feeling the need to respect her wishes. Oh she has said I can have my son provided I pick him up, knowing fully well my car's not running.
I guess you can expect more posts here now that I feel free to do as I like again.
posted by AKA AWOL at 12:19 AM
3 Comments:
I feel sorry for you, but don't you think you should fix your car. She is right it is your responsibility to see your son.
Dont you think I would have my car fixed already if I could have? Is there realy a person that thinks I would rather live my life secludid and relient on other to get my basic needs? Get real, I would not wish this on anyone.
BTW if I was going to say something so stupid I'd sign it anonymous too
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