I got my son droped off yesterday. Not quite sure how it happened but i can speculate. I was on phone with him and it was clear that my ex could hear me. I was saying that I wasn't getting help from his mom because she was mad at me. She from the back ground said "that's not it! its because the last time i helped you i got treated like dirt" and I said "see that's why she is mad at me." it was in an instant that her tone changed and she took the phone and said she haven't received $ from her previous ex so she had no gas to drive him around, so I said once I could get a ride to the bank I'd pull out some money to give her and get my son. After a few she called back and said she got her money and would bring me my son as well as pick him up to that this wasn't to become a regular practice.It's been great having him. I would have posted this yestrday but we were bussy playing. We played with Superman Lego's and stuff. Regardless of the arguments that have happened, I'm just really glad to have the time with my little man.

To my son

Hey there buddy,
Your to young to understand the things that are going on right now between your mother and I, But I'm writing this because it will because when you grow up I want you to see and Know your daddy has always loved you. I have tried very hard to get my car running but it still doesn't start. I've called friends hopping to get a ride to come and get you but none were available, And thought your mother is saying that she couldn't afford to bring you to me, I offered her gas money and asked how much she needed and she refused. So last night I was here in our old home crying, missing my son and knowing how you were being used like a pawn to hurt me. I just want you to know I love you buddy and hope in time you realise that I always have.

another weekend without my son

Well i couldn't post yesterday so here is what happened then....
I talked to my son and he wants to come out to my house. so I told him I'd do my best to get a ride there to get him but that my car wasn't working. My ex got on the phone and I asked "how much money for gas would it take for you to drive him here?" her reply was "you know it ain't going to work like that."
So today...... my son is calling crying about how he misses his daddy and wants me to find a ride. I called a friend @5:30pm who was still at work. he's an hour away and has things to do before he could help. I called the ex back and told her what was up. she told me that was to bad because now she might not be around later. I said "i just want you to know what your doing to our son is wrong". and hung up. She called back and started b***hing, I said "this wasn't up for a debate". she was going "waaa waaa waaa" as i hung up again.
I called and talked to my son again.... he sounded so sad and in the back ground say "I'm not keeping you from your father". She's pinning the whole not seeing him on me. this sucks so freaking bad.
at 10:40pm i sent this message to the ex's phone:
Brian never called me back. I'll try to find a ride tomorow. what is the earlest you would be avalibe?
My ex called and said that she was planing on sleeping in. so I asked nicely could she called once they got up? she said yes.
My ex called back and asked "if your haveing such a problem picking him up How are you planing on getting him back?" I said "what? I don't know. You meen to tell me that you can't pick him up?" She said "it was a bad week and I cann't aford the gas"Me: "I told you that I would have given gas monie for both ways"Her: "hey you think I a B---h I'm going to show you what a bitch I can be"Me: "So your saing that since I can't asure you that I can get him back I can't have him?"Her "ya that about it"
So I now go with my 3rd weekend without my son. I hope she isn't expecting any kind jesters anythime soon!

I see people have been very busy!

WOW!! So it’s another day and I see people have been very busy. Well now I have few things to say. I love how everyone wants the last word. Well guess what? My blog, my last word. Marilyn needs to shut the fuck up. You tell me that the life story shouldn’t be posted and then proceed to go on and on, then say that the friends that help me get to stores and such should help me with my son and then criticize that. Marilyn you clearly want to fight for no apparent reason with wild assumptions of how you think my life should be. Well you don’t know shit and its best that you keep your narrow minded opinions to yourself.

From Marilyn’s comments: An affair is an affair and YES you did cheat. Being unfaithful on the Internet is an affair. Sexually pleasuring yourself with another woman on the phone or Internet is an affair. You are having indecent thoughts and pleasure with another woman. THAT IS AN AFFAIR.

Lets see then…. If I rub one out with a playboy magazine then I guess that’s an affair to eh? Lol ok then if I whack it to old pictures of Anna Nicole Smith I guess that would make it necrophilia. What ever, and who really cares what you think? Your attempt to make me out as a bad guy has only shown that you haven’t spent much time examining the world around you.

Further more I really don’t have time to waist on ignorant people who make unfounded assumptions. I can only say that I hope that by reading my blog people will have gotten to know me better and on day my son can look back at all this and understand why I am where I am, and know he was loved and cared for and that some of his family just are messed up. My brother-in-law said it best…. “You chouse your friends, but are stuck with family”. I now chouse who I wish to associate with, with the exception of my soon to be ex-wife, and that’s because we have a son to raise. In time she might get over her hurt feelings, she might not. People are responsible for there own feelings, placing blame never helps. From what I have seen the only ones here making real personal sacrifices are Keith and Tazzie0612 to help when it comes to me and my son. I know who friends are and can see by their generosity that I am cared for.

For the rest of you who think you know my life and think I should do things differently… sorry I can’t accommodate you, and if you want to take your house payment to help my ex by all means be my guest. I’m sure she would be grateful, other wise mind your own business.